Sunday, 26 February 2012

...resolute

So, yet again, my wee blog has been neglected for two weeks. I give it a makeover and then I sod off and don't post.

I don't tend to write about my work much. I work with a family, and they deserve privacy, so I give them it. What I will say is that 99% of the time, I love my job. You know how people often say 'I don't want to go to work today'? That doesn't happen to me. I love my job so much that I am willing to travel 2 hours each way, three days a week. There is so much good to be found in working with kids. And not to toot my own horn, but I am good at it.

That said, the past couple of weeks have been hard. There have been days where i'd have happily just gone back to bed. Lots of factors have made them really challenging and dis-hearting, and I have let it squash me a bit. I am usually really on top of things, and if anything is chucked at me at the last minute, I just get on with it - my job is essential to be part of a family, and family life varies, so you deal with it. 

For the past two weeks I have felt on the back foot for the whole time. It spilled into Friday, which means I spent Saturday doing Friday things (cleaning mostly), and now it's Sunday and work is tomorrow. I really don't like not feeling in control of and ready to deal with things, so I am trying very hard right now to make myself think positively and get ready to go into the next week feeling I'll be on top of things again. 

So, that's the reason for the neglect.  I have lots of nice things to blog about, but it's hard to do when you feel rubbish. Work and doubt got in the way.  I really need to kick its arse and be a bit more positive. I'd quite like to wake up tomorrow wanting to go to work please. For now I'll just take sitting and reading,  a bit of work on my sewing machine, and maybe later a bit of baking. It might just salvage this week.

At least spending the whole day cleaning yesterday means I can sit, and will wake up to a new week in a tidy, shiny flat. Tidy home, tidy mind? 

19 comments:

thebabywife said...

I always feel better when the flat is clean - even if I don't like doing the actual tidying part. Hope you manage to lift yourself out of your funk soon

xxx

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

While our work environments couldn't be more different, this posts sums up how I have been feeling lately amazingly well. I, too, have lost that excitement to go to work because things are happening that create so much uncertainty and it's all pretty much out of my control. It's tough.

I hope things improve for both of us very soon! And I am glad you took today to do things you enjoy!!

Hazel's Crochet said...

Cleaning the flat does give a good boost sometimes, I hope things pick up for you sis! :)

Lottie said...

I feel better when the place around me is tidy too.

I hope that tomorrow is better than you think it will be and you still have the rest of today!

Siobhan said...

I am reading a book where they point out why tidiness helps. If the place is a mess, you wake up, maybe stub your toe, or trip over something that is not meant to be there and start in a bad mood, if it is tidy and clean, you don't have those things to make things feel worse. I hope this week turns things around for you lovely. xx

Alan Hughes said...

A quiet night, books and tea in a tidy flat should do it

JoJo said...

Monday is a new day and its a new week- it will be better- trust in that. Sometimes life sucks but your week will be better I am sure, Hugs Jo xx

Mathilde heart Manech said...

A tidy house really does work wonders. I just wish I was organised & tidy all the time! I've been absent too but I think that's OK sometimes. Life has a habit of getting in the way of my blogging fun time! I hope you have a better week chuck, I'm sure you will xx p.s the new blog design is lovely :-)

Conversation Pieces said...

I sort of subscribe to the theory of tidy home, tidy mind... though considering how untidy my flat normally is maybe I shouldn't! I hope you feel a lot, lot, lot less rubbish soon... it's hard to feel on the back foot like that. (And yes blogging nice stuff when you feel poop is hard though it might make you feel better?) xx

grace said...

i dread cleaning, but it's silly of me because i always feel so much better about things after i've done it. i hope things improve for you this week--hang in there!

Lisa E said...

I can so relate to this entire post! Hugs to you. And I love the new look!

Evil Pixie said...

I've never been much of a tidy person (Naughty Pixie will attest to that). I work in organized chaos and seem to do okay with that. That said, if I'm feeling a bit... Well... Off, I don't feel much like doing anything. I'm sending lots of positive vibes your way in hopes that your week starts off on a far better foot. *hugs*

amy b.s. said...

i couldn't agree with you more. even though it gets dirty so fast, i always feel better after i've cleaned our house.

Vicky said...

I completely agree with previous comments - everything always seems so much worse, and I just cannot be bothered to blog, when my surroundings are a mess. I also find that reading interiors blogs makes everything worse - it gives you unrealistic expectations of how you should live. When I'm in a real slump, I stay right away from Design Sponge and Apartment Therapy!

Hope you're feeling better soon, looking forward to reading your forthcoming posts x

Cass said...

Know that feeling- its Tuesday now, hopefully your back in the driving seat honey!!

KatGotTheCream said...

Sounds like you've had an off week (me too, for what it's worth) but I think it's good that you can recognise all that's good about your work/life situation.

PS Love the new look blog - yellow is the way forward (but you knew that already) x

Lindsay Jewell said...

I hope things are perking up a bit for you nowadays. Your blog looks great, btw.

TheFoodieHistorian said...

A couple of years ago, my mum came over when I wasn't on top form, and told me that the state of my flat was indicative of the state of my mind. She was right. It was an absolute tip. No matter how nicely I dress, or how much makeup I have on, my mum and my boyfriend can always tell my mood from the state of my flat! A day with the windows open doing the cleaning scares off the black dog, and clears my head too!

Lisa-Marie said...

Thank you everyone. I am pleased to say this week was much, much better, and I feel more on top of things.

:)