I don't tend to write about my work much. I work with a family, and they deserve privacy, so I give them it. What I will say is that 99% of the time, I love my job. You know how people often say 'I don't want to go to work today'? That doesn't happen to me. I love my job so much that I am willing to travel 2 hours each way, three days a week. There is so much good to be found in working with kids. And not to toot my own horn, but I am good at it.
That said, the past couple of weeks have been hard. There have been days where i'd have happily just gone back to bed. Lots of factors have made them really challenging and dis-hearting, and I have let it squash me a bit. I am usually really on top of things, and if anything is chucked at me at the last minute, I just get on with it - my job is essential to be part of a family, and family life varies, so you deal with it.
For the past two weeks I have felt on the back foot for the whole time. It spilled into Friday, which means I spent Saturday doing Friday things (cleaning mostly), and now it's Sunday and work is tomorrow. I really don't like not feeling in control of and ready to deal with things, so I am trying very hard right now to make myself think positively and get ready to go into the next week feeling I'll be on top of things again.
So, that's the reason for the neglect. I have lots of nice things to blog about, but it's hard to do when you feel rubbish. Work and doubt got in the way. I really need to kick its arse and be a bit more positive. I'd quite like to wake up tomorrow wanting to go to work please. For now I'll just take sitting and reading, a bit of work on my sewing machine, and maybe later a bit of baking. It might just salvage this week.
At least spending the whole day cleaning yesterday means I can sit, and will wake up to a new week in a tidy, shiny flat. Tidy home, tidy mind?