Sunday, 12 June 2011

...trying very hard to be positive.


this used to be where our telly was. now it has newspaper and
various vessels to catch the drips. Every time it rains.

This week has been pretty awful for us. Dave submitted his thesis corrections on Tuesday, so now we are playing the waiting game till he gets his results. On Wednesday, the ceiling started leaking, bringing for both of us flashbacks of exploding pipes and a completely soaked flat. Fortunately, it's in the Dundee flat, and we aren't financially responsible for it. Unfortunately, the problem is an outside the building one, meaning the other flat owners are responsible for it as well as our landlords, and they have to go through all the stupid bureaucracy and money issues for it to be sorted out. so that's another waiting game. And it dripped on our telly. Work has been extremely challenging for me this week, and I an utterly done in. Dave has a  bad cold and with it, a quite large eczema outbreak. Life is not what one would call fun. We have done pretty much nothing other than lounge and read and listen to music this weekend, and my goodness we need it.

Added to this, once we had decided we were aiming to move back to Paisley, I sort of mentally moved.  The plan has highlighted stuff in our life here that is not at all ideal. I love my job(there are no words to explain how much), and the thought of not seeing the kids all the time is heartbreaking. Still, I think ahead to another winter of snow and bus travel, taking up to 4 hours to get home, being cold and wet, and I want to cry(sometimes in winter I did cry). When we are in Dundee for the weekend and it's nice, I fret about the Paisley garden becoming overrun. We are paying for the upkeep of two places (though curiously, since we probably will move back, it's seems to have been the means to an end). And our wee nephew is growing up quickly, and we only get to see him every few weeks. It feels like we are missing an awful lot.


Having the plan, while helpful, doesn't mean we don't have to wait though. I am trying very hard to remind myself of the reasons I like Dundee, and this flat. About the skills and experience Dave has gained in his job. About the lovely family I work with, the respect I am given. AND, Dave and I have each other through all this, an that makes it manageable. I have been looking for ideas for the rather neglected Paisley flat for when we do eventually move, and small things we can do there in the interim. I have taken pictures of the bits of the flat I like here, not to replicate, but perhaps to incorporate in some way.

Clockwise from left - my corner of doom, cluster of hung objects(Painting, the love knot
was a wedding gift, Dave's bodhran, Winnie the Pooh) our fireplace headboard, the corner sofa.

It's not all bad. We will be alright. I love my job. We have a roof over our heads, food to eat, and people we love to help us. We'll move when we can. But I might need reminding of this occasionally.

19 comments:

Siobhan said...

The leak does sound awful and waiting can be extremely hard so it is okay to feel down sometimes. I am glad you both have each other and hope things start to improve.

You give each other support and I think that is wonderful and amazing and something to aspire to. x

Elizabeth @rosalilium said...

Ah, the waiting game is so hard when you have exciting plans, and when crappy weather and leaks happen....sheesh. Hang on in there, lovely. *big hugs*
x

Lisa from Lisa's Yarns said...

Aw, I am sorry you are having such a rough go right now. Dealing wiht water issues is such a headache. I hope your tv wasn't damaged. :(

It's tough to sort of be in limbo - you know, to be excited for changes on the horizon, but not at the point where you can make those changes.

I think it's a good plan to focus on the things you love about Dundee. And to maybe make a list of things you want to do before your move - sort of a bucket list?

I think sometimes we feel like we can't complain because, in general, we are very lucky since we have our health, jobs, a home, etc. But sometimes, you just have to say, 'you know what, this freaking sucks!'. Sending hugs from Minnesota!

Lisa E said...

I don't have anything to say that hasn't already been said above, but I 'm sending HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS!!!!

trashsparkle said...

Its a bummer when so many things seem to not be going right all at once; it only takes one more tiny thing for it all to escalate... As that leak; you shouldn't have to be waiting for people to get their act together to sort it out - they should be fixing it straight away and dealing with paperwork etc later! Hope its fixed soon and everything else gets better. How long do you anticipate til the move back to Paisley? x

Evil Pixie said...

I think this last week has been an icky week for many (incluidng this Pixie). I'm sending you and Dave all my positive vibes. :)

Julia said...

that sucks about the flat! But, just think about paisley - everything will be grand! *hugs*

conversationpieces said...

Yeah, it's tough when you've mentally moved elsewhere already... I did that with our last place, I was so ready to be somewhere else it was unreal. It will all work itself out though – just remember to breath deep and know this is just a phase. (I think the first part helps more than the second!)

Becky said...

Hope all the waiting is bearable! You've ended the post on a pretty positive note so hopefully writing it all out was a helpful process in itself! Thoughts.

claire said...

The rain is due to stop soon - so hopefully in the respite the leak can be fixed. As for the other things. Limbo is annoying but also exciting - lots of plans to make and things to look forward to while you work it out. Though remind me of this over the next few months, as we plan a move from London to Glasgow...

Cass said...

hang in there kiddo!

grace said...

lisa-marie! hang in there, my friend--brighter days are surely coming. from what i can tell, you have an optimism about you that won't ever be squelched. :)

mathildeheartmanech said...

I declare this week to be better than last...there, i said it now, so it must be!
Sending you hugs and positive 'dry roof' thoughts xx

Lisa-Marie said...

My dear ladies, thank you every so much for the support. I don't know what to say! I will be ok!

annelise said...

Well, this sounds exceptionally shitty. Hopefully things have turned around for you both.

Spare Thoughts said...

I can offer you hugs, a shoulder to lean on and an ear to listen at any time. Wish that felt more useful.

Young at Heart said...

ooh it does all sound a bit bleak but you wear it well....this too shall pass...good luck with it all...

amy b.s. said...

the best part about times like this is they always get better and you have something good to look forward to. hang in there and good luck!

Ms M said...

Only one thing to say my lovely "chin up. tits out!"